July 2010
Today, I finally accept the fact you’re gone James. I haven’t cried this much since Seng broke up with me. But then, they were both different scenarios. James, I love you so much that I know I have to let go of the fact you’re gone. I’ll see you again one day slit eyes. I won’t forget you.
Saturday; I’m going to face him. I don’t know how this will end...
It’s been a month, but my heart still hurts. Someone get me out of this hell hole.
I’ve got to walk away while there’s...
”.. I’m fallin’ apart, I’m...
July 31st.
That’s the day I will face you. After 1 month of feeling lost, I’ll understand. Why do I still dream of you every fucking night? Because that’s the way my heart tells my brain that I still love you.
Never get tired of this song.
After this whole break up.. it has DRASTICALLY changed my life.. and not for the better. I don’t know what the fuck is going on, but my parents want to move Again. This will be my 3rd time moving within 1 1/2 years. I’m so sick of everything. I don’t want to fucking drive 30 mins - 1 hour everyday to get to school. I don’t want to pay a bridge toll of $5 to get from...
July 4th
I went to my cousins house for their BBQ. Karen texts me to go out with her to a party. I decided to go. I barely knew people there though. Met some new people along the way, but the feeling of sadness overwhelmed me.. I kept thinking of him. I was trying my best not to think of him. I just broke down. Karen talked to me and gave me a shot. I never had Bacardi before. It didn’t taste bad....
